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Sunday, March 4, 2012 by ZulfadlyAshBurn
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Start of 2012

Hello everyone :) It's been a long time since I've been blogging.
I've removed all the previous post as I don't want to think about them anymore.

Started this year not as good as last year.
Got sick so often :(
Almost every week, I missed school at least once.

Afiq's Birthday :)

Went to Marina Bay Sands once again thanks to Afiq Thomas.

Had alot of fun with Malcolm, Hidayat, Dannie, Reeca, Natasha, Amirah, Kai Min and Afiq's sister and her friends. Got dared and truth-ed. Super epic sia.

Love Life

So, love life was good for the first month until something bad happened :(
Jealously got the better of me :/
So, I'm in love with this girl.
She was everything to me.
I met her everyday cause I will miss her the moment she's gone.
I would meet her every morning to do my maths but the main purpose
was to see her. No Joke! :)
From the start, I know she once had a crush on my best friend but on 15 january,
she confessed and said that she likes me. That is where is all started. To avoid
conflicts, I spend little time with my best friend. I usually hangout with her
and is almost unavoidable to see us together. I guessed he finds out at that is
when I start getting paranoid and jealous when she meets him after school for a talk
or something. I kept questioning her if she loves me. And yes, she answered.
Things were not so bad at first. I guess I got too clingy :/
Weeks past and we've had hugs, hold hands and kisses :) Those were to most awesome
moments in my life. #SERIOUSLY!
Send her home a few times. Went out with her only once at Sengkang's Starbuck :)
I miss those memories. Haizz
After all those, I start getting paranoid cause she starts talking & texting to him :/
She say she is just super good friend with him.
The thing which actually made us separated was because I got mad on valentines days.
Few days before valentines day, she told me she would be busy studying and say she
can't meet me after school or have lunch. So the only time I could meet her was
in the morning. Thus, I got her a bouquet of flowers and some ferrero rocher and
hugged her. She told me that she would be meeting him after school.
I was like WTF?! but nonetheless, I couldn't do much and just say okay lor.
I was feeling down the whole day. After school, I wanted to meet her but she
was having lunch with him! I got super angry luhr. I texted her but she
didn't seem to know that I was jealous. It was still okay luhr. Danial they
all consoled me and I was back to normal. Then after afternoon lessons, I wanted
to meet her. I waited at the porch. She was nowhere to be found. I saw her father's
car. A minute later, she went to the car. She was from NCC room or somewhere there
with him while I waited for her :'( I went to the soccer cage to play soccer and
secretly cried. I texted her and that is when is gets all bad. Sorry :/
The next day, I confronted her but she say she didn't know he was going to take
a long time to give her a valentines day present and during lunch, he was the one
who went up and seat with her :/ I trusted her luhr. Then it was okay. From that
point of time, we texted lesser, meet lesser and don't even study together as it
was CA period. I read her tweets everyday and sometimes I wonder is she was directing
all those tweets at me :( but she said those tweets weren't for me. But yeah, I felt
bad and wrote a letter to her saying sorry and everything. I know I was super clingy
and irritating. I asked her if she could give me another chance to start it all over.
She say she don't know :'( A week passed and we don't talk unless on twitter. I twitter
DM her and asked if she's friend-zoning. She asked what's friend-zone and I explained.
She said she don't like anyone already :'( and she friend-zoned me. I was super upset
that I cried the whole night :'( that's the end of the story liao. I told her that
I still love her and would wait for her. The only thing I could do now is wait for her

Nowadays, I often see her talking and smiling with him. There's nothing I could do
other than look at them :/ Well people say, if you love someone, you want he/she to
have a smile on his/her face. Well, that's what I'm doing. I'm giving her all her
freedom. I don't mind getting hurt just to see her smile :') I wonder if she forgets
about all the things we've done. I really hope, one day. She would be mine. Once Again!

With love,
ZulfadlyAshBurn